Posts Tagged ‘aura’

Men’s Group

January 7, 2009

I was invited a few months back to become a member of a men’s group. It has been a fantastic experience for me and I have been feeling stronger, and more myself, with the support of these men. After a quick nap to recover from the appointments for the day, I headed over for lively discussion and soup.
Soup? Yes, somehow we have a tradition now of chowing down some bitchin’ soup before we pass the talking stick. We meet every two weeks, and so its bread and heartiness for hearty men!

I had a great day of appointments and working on several projects, so I was feeling pretty relaxed and tuned up. I get to men’s group, sit down with my soup and bread, and suddenly I feel anxiety. Now, I check in with myself, and….

1) I had a great day,
2) feel good about what I have accomplished,
3) I have a pretty darn good relationship with these men,
4) I don’t have group/public anxiety,

So, I know this must be my Spidey Sense; otherwise known as; my openness or undefined centers. After all, I have 7 of 9 centers open….

my chart

I begin sniffing and checking. Its actually a very practical process, and soooo NON-woowoo.

I begin to sort through the auras in the room, b/c we are all sitting pretty close to each other. I can feel each of their signatures. chattery and churning minds, emotional waves, and steady root centers. I’m getting pretty adept at this b/c I have been meeting with these men for several months so far, and I know these men pretty well. Its kinda weird to describe, but since I have so little definition, my Spidey Sense has gotten pretty darn good. I check the guy on either side of me, and its not from either of them. skipping over them it gets a little garbled, so I figure I’m going to wait until the discussion reveals who has anxiety. I do feel specific pressure and its coming from somewhere off to my right, so I wait…

Then, the talking stick is passed, and he speaks.
He literally says, ‘ I have some anxiety around an issue, and I wanted to discuss it with you guys.’


Found it! sweet. Ahhh, I knew it wasn’t me, b/c I know what my own anxiety feels like, and it surely wasn’t what I was feeling.
hmmm, the power of auric interaction. Can’t help it, really. Since we all like to be around others, I think its more about developing an understanding of what is mine and what isn’t, and where I am being filled up by another. you hang out near someone, you will be in their aura, can’t help it. no foil dunce caps, or magnetic diffusers will help. This answered soooo many questions I had about being a chameleon around others. with so much openness, I literally became the other person I am hanging out with! their defined auras filled up my undefined places, and I get all jacked on whatever is tumbling around inside them at that moment.

its quite technical, really. Recognizing that each of the 9 centers has a quality about it, a feeling/sensation when it is Defined and when it is UNdefined, and noting how it feels.
I don’t hafta get out my beads, or center myself, or any of that other new age stuff, its simply me, knowing what I have and don’t, from my rave chart. THEN….

I can sit inside my own body, and know that the sensation is NOT me, or I can move away from them. we can only protect ourselves a little bit, the overlap is kinda crazy. Like two bubbles that are around 8′-10′ in diameter lacing into each other throughout the entire interaction…

8'-10' feet in ALL directions

8'-10' feet in ALL directions

He got his anxiety off his chest, and I know he did, b/c I felt so much better after he finished talking….
whew! and Men’s group rocked me, yet again. thanks boys!

Gettin’ Power’d UP!

April 17, 2008

This stuff really works!

So, I am out with a friend the other night, and we are talking about Human Design, He wanted an overview reading and we’d been waiting a while to get together, just to get some face time as well. We’re hanging out, trying to get into the ‘mood’ to talk about Design. Even lubricated with a dirty vodka martini and some really good happy hour food, still it’s a bit challenging. I can’t find my groove. I am ramping up and getting into it, but its not really working out, my thoughts are kinda fragmented, and i get off track and we bot get distracted. Both he and I are projectors, by the by, and so even when we’re together we’re not really ‘powered’ as it were.
Then, a friend of his(we’re in a restaurant at which he used to work) came over and sat down with us for a little visit while she was on break. I got excited, and started talking, east coast style! fast and concise and on a run! then she leaves to go back to her shift. and we kinda coasted back into the conversation, and foundered a bit more, but we were getting it done. I was almost satisfied with what I was sharing, but it still felt a little empty.

She comes back about a half hour later, informs us she’s off for the evening, so we invite her to sit with us. Off I GO again! talking a mile a minute, focused and sharing all kinds of cool stories and getting a lot across about Design in the overview with my friend, and a whole lotta other stuff too…
In the middle of this second conversation (with the added party) I say to him, “I bet you she’s a Manifesting Generator, and that
A) she’s got sacral definition, which means when she’s around she’ll be powering us up (the sacral is a motor of life force), and
B) that she has a defined throat, which means that who ever doesn’t have a defined throat(yours truly) will be talking a mile a minute, ’bout all kinds of stuff. And she just gets to sit there and soak it in.

well, after me talking my face off for another 40 minutes, and them both sitting there completely enthralled, I start to notice that I am getting tired. I remember again that my suspicions about being powered by her are most likely true, and I tell them both that I must cease, or I will burn out. Being very satisfied with his reading, and she well informed about bodywork modalities and a whole lot of other miscellaneous topics, they both agree that I can shut up now.
We pay the bill and egress into the cool night air. I remind him again of my suspicions of her design, and albeit he doesn’t quite understand everything I am speaking about, he logs it.

Its uncanny. I get an email from her the next day, run her chart, and there it is….

Everything I presumed!

Now, he and I are both projectors; he’s a mental one and I am ego and G defined.



But the dynamic of her simply being present powered the whole process. She barely said very much the whole time, but she id say, “I’m just going to sit here and absorb what’s happening, don’t bother with me so much.”
Which of course, is a PERFECT description of a generator’s aura.

She’s go the sacral defined. the red square, the life force center, the powerhouse of vitality, and she also has the throat. the sacral is connected to the throat, up the left and through the G center (the yellow lozenge) so its powered by the sacral even though its a roundabout route. He has his throat defined as well, but its not powered by a motor, its connected to his conceptual center, but there’s not really power behind it. She’s the one that made is all go zoooooom. I have no definition in my throat at all, and I am usually the one speaking, as are other people who’s throats are undefined, they are the ones who end of blabbing all over the place, speaking what is not theirs, being powered by a defined throat in someone else!

Yep. I got powered, he got a killer overview, and we got to see the mechanics of aura in action. She’s going to be very excited about her reading, I can feel it.

And that’s the truth!